Late night problem

I really hate being woken up during the middle of the night, okay we'll I wasn't sleeping.

I was watching Korean dramas and my mother walking in on me to complain about my friend.(yup she's still staying at my house)...so anyways she complain that my friend sweater smells like cigarettes, first I thought it was weird and a little creepy for her doing that...and second I want to watch my dramas withou having my mother block the screen complain, and three my friend is a sleep in my room on the top bunk and she can hear her if she wakes up.

We'll anyway some juicy drama appeared, ohh I love when there is a fight scene between brothers over a girl. We'll any fight,

So yeah, later and night

Sometimes when I'm writing entries or chapters, I hear Morgan Freeman reading all of these words.

It's a little disturbing because this is why I rarely do steamy stories...

The week so far

I got sick again...and won't go to school for awhile. I'm like pissed off about it and I WANT TO PLAY WITH SOME POTTERY CLAY.
*coughs* Sorry about that everyone just really annoyed of my sickness and I have final projects due soon but I've been ill the whole time. But I drew Foxy from Five Night's At Freddy's in there human forms.

Here's the sketch

and here's the colored.

 Didn't really edit anything but just colored cuz my head hurt to much

Are You Still There?

Nothing seems real, I’m scared and worried,
I’m waiting for our safe return
I wish that this is all a dream and that you haven’t left me,
Left me here alone,
Alone in this cruel world.
I’m not ready to see my little fallen angel leave me,
It’s not your fault, 
It’s not your time.
love was cruel to you and so where others,
I couldn't help.
No matter how I tried or how hard,
I wasn’t aware you were in so much pain,
You were lost deep in the darkness, 
I searched for you and I couldn't find you, only your voice,
Your soft broken voice…
That played a melody that of no other,
But a child born in pain and sadness could..just like me.
Your loved by many, 
Yet hated by one,
By the one you loved and still do,
You hurt him but he hurt you more,
Your love was true to him but his was not.
Even though he refuse you after you still tried to protect him,
Protect him from the evil witch and her spell, 
But in the end it was useless her spell was too strong on him,
And he refused to even hear your name or hear you breath.
And that hurt you more…
Brought you deeper into the darkness, 
And I lost you to it...I wasn’t brave enough to help you, 
You blamed yourself. 
Your broken heart couldn’t be healed with time, it only made it worse.
You tried to act brave and unaffected,
Even when you were dying inside.
You told me goodbye not that long ago,
It surprised me and hurt my heart,
Now I just wait each passing hour waiting that this is a dream,
Please tell me you haven’t left for good, my little fallen angel?
Give me a sign you’ll be back…
Everyday I fear the worse,
You're still too young,
Do not make me and everyone else who loves you mourn you,
It’s too cruel.
Don’t leave me in this darkness alone…
Your voice is now silent. 
You're no where to be heard,
Only my soft cries can be heard.

just...

Sorry I haven't been on, lots of things have happen to me this week. First I got really sick and ended up missing a few days of school, and not to mention one on my friends did something I'm scared of. At this moment I just wish it's just a dream...Nothing is really real to me at the moment, I'm agitated, irritated, scared, and worried and I can't help it. I want to attack the one who actually started all of this but I know better, but yet little ol' me will still do it.

A Sleepless night

I just woke up, 

I only had five hours of sleep. 

Which is good but I spent the last last day awake, 

I wanted to sleep but I got distracted with my drawing. 

I wanted to sleep but my brother got ill and threw up chunks in the bathroom and my bedroom floor, 

I need to stay and help him let it out. 

Mostly out of worry while my parents forgot they had in youngest son that night,

No one got out of bed, 

No one asked,

No one really cared. 

That the youngest was in pain from throwing up, 

While I stood beside him, 

Confronting him, 

And giving him as much comfort a sister could give. 

I spent that whole night forcing myself awake that night,

Passing out a few times until he finally finished and slept.

Attractive People

Why are there so many attractive people in the world? Like I want to love every single one of you, but at the moment I'm busy loving my boyfriend and myself. But if I'm ever single, I won't mind dating one of you, I bet your all awesome. Yet I'm just a flirt, so be careful and don't try to fall in love with me~.

Bras

Why are bras so confusing? 

Why is it hard to get my size? 

Is my size nonexistent?

Is my size a rare creature?
Are my breast some sort of a majestic unicorns?
Why do I bother buying bras if you do not have the size I need. 

I'll rather bandage them,

It will have me money,

But not time, but it's fine

I just want something to support my chest.

Cleaning My Room

So I was cleaning my room today with my brother and my friend. I was cleaning out my baby's brother's toy chest by dumping everything on the floor and I had spiders crawling all over me for an hour and I had more when I did the same when cleaned my shoe chest.