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I have an Instagram now! where I'll be posting my art. Follow me! @3zumii

I haven't been on much, school keeps stressing me out. But good thing I got a new phone and I might try and upload through it if I'm not to tired or lazy.
Anyways, I just finish my some of my class assignment...I might help out more if I have the energy. enjoy what I drew.

Never mind. I just wasted ten minuted kicking him and ignoring the movie

watching a movie with the waifu

Just A Little Longer... (story poem for one of my characters)

Let me love you for a little longer; before time stops and you are gone.
Just a little longer please; I want to give you all my love,
Before we have to say goodbye.
We weren't meant to be; but to me you were perfect,
from the first moment I found you.
Small and delicate; sleeping calmly in my womb.
It wasn't meant to be; but I just wanted to have you,
Every heart beat we shared; and every breath, laugh, and tears we shared,
Was just perfect.
I don’t want to lose you; but our fate wasn't connect like I thought it was,
I will love you till your end; because you were worth it.
As Death comes and take you in his arms; I want you to know,
That I love you more than the day and night,
I only wish is that I could of spent the rest of my life loving you.

My heart beats heavy; in this hollow soul
My heart pounds against my chest; loud and painfully.
Every breath I take become harder to breath.
Like I’m falling into a dark abyss; making it hard to scream.
I want to make it stop but I can’t; because I’m the cause of this problem,
All I asked is that this pain won’t stop; for the day it stops,
It will be the day I’ll take my last breath.
My tears fill this abyss; as my nails mark my skin like I've done to these walls,
I am tempted by Death’s sweet kiss; but I know that kiss is not for me yet,
I still have time here; I still have something to do; I still need to make my mark,
Just to make the ones I love proud; just a little bit but not a lot.
As my heart beats louder against my chest; taking my words and screams I away,
I do not fear this; This will end one day but not soon.
As every breath get harder; I know that this will only last for a while until it is my time.

Tonight

I just cried in my bed tonight,
Mostly because I wrote something to my friend that they will never see.
Until after my wedding day.
Until I know I am far away from them and they won't see me cry,
And before I could change my mind.
Because by then they'll be living a better life.
And they might be with someone new.

I don't want to be a stain from there past.
Even as I write this I am still crying.
I can't stop the tears from falling no matter how much tissues I use.

Because I wrote something with my heart in my letter to them.
Because I'm too stupid and scared to show them.
But not to strangers.
Because I'll let strangers read my heart before them.
I'll let them wait not knowing I wrote them something to personal and dear to me.
I am a coward.
I am the worst.
Because I'll rather wait until I'm married and starting my own life,
Then to let them know before I put them in so much shock and pain.
Before I commit to a life of marriage.

As I continue typing, I slowly begin to stop crying,
I wish that everything I wrote was because I was sick.
That my fever let my heart speak,
Letting it honestly speak about something I hid and blocked away.
Now I only wish is to sleep tonight without tears.
It doesn't look pretty at all more because I am sick.